keeping up myself on track....

latest-most-sensational issue is EARTHQUAKE IN JAPAN!

hahaha....so, it shows how up-to-date i am...

this week, i hardly touched newspapers..n most of the sensational issues i did not know...

quite a loss for me.....

but the most things that worsen my feeling this week is not it but other thing....

its complicated to describe...

but then i discover some part of myself that most of the time i mistakenly thought....

should forget it and place my mind into my main target now...

"life is interesting when u really discover yourself and enjoy the way yourself like to enjoy"

GET up..........

fuhh.....now i felt tired being a law student....
opsss...smthg missing Bchelor of law student......evrything is tired!
stdy is tired, revision is tired, and da most thing is walking to the class!!
i know la islamic university....long way lead to more rewards....
but I AM TIRED!!
n One more thing i just realise that final exam is coming nearer to me even i say no u dont have to come to me...
hahahha.....i didnt enjoy too much yet this sem......

in reality i didnt stdy yet....tomrrw is my transac test...hope evrythng will go well tmrrw....
Transac, Ils, Tort, Frdhu Ain n UNGS are all went well i guess...
but CONTRACT! fuhhh...i dont know how to express it...
of course it is one of my favourte bt then i dont like my tutorial class at all! why she always raised her voice!
pointed here n pointed there...i dont enjoy been in tht class..i want to participate but I AM AFRAID OF HER!!!!!!!! arghhhh...mybe bcoz we are not ready...my be it is not too remote if i relate it with lecture class...
sometimes i dream a lot in tht class...hahaha..no wonder la msuk kelas tutor contract, hampeh jdinya...

n smthg tht i really thinking about while i write this post is MY FAMILY....
wuahhaaa...missing my parents, my beloved grandma n grandpa....
has been 2 mnths i guess....today i felt like im missing them too much...
i dont know why? is it my time to go back??
i dont think this weekend is the best time fr me to go back...
exam is haunting me....hmmm...
i love them n until now my love is only to THEM....
nt other persons or GIRL...they come first then the girl...

is that really will happen??

first, im thinking of my past...
im afraid of that moment will again happen to me...
im afraid so much of that incident...
it dragged me into many problems....
changed me a lot from what i was before....

it has been 2 years now! it is still haunted me.....
but lately, one question came to approach me...
are u dare enough to consider it back??
i admit that incident still haunted me but not as strong as before.
i think i am matured enough to bear it again.

but it is not an easy job
suitability and eternity is what i prioritize...
"no suitable no talk"
a mountain of money cannot make ur relationship last-long
a shining and expensive car cannot make me satisfy
because if i have it now, it is not mine fully,
it come from my father's wealth even he is not wealthy
so if someone dare to claim he is wealthy now,
come forward and issue it to me,
i will definitely deliver my point.......

am i desperate because wrote all this?
no, im not..
i can wait...