GET up..........

fuhh.....now i felt tired being a law student....
opsss...smthg missing Bchelor of law student......evrything is tired!
stdy is tired, revision is tired, and da most thing is walking to the class!!
i know la islamic university....long way lead to more rewards....
but I AM TIRED!!
n One more thing i just realise that final exam is coming nearer to me even i say no u dont have to come to me...
hahahha.....i didnt enjoy too much yet this sem......

in reality i didnt stdy yet....tomrrw is my transac test...hope evrythng will go well tmrrw....
Transac, Ils, Tort, Frdhu Ain n UNGS are all went well i guess...
but CONTRACT! fuhhh...i dont know how to express it...
of course it is one of my favourte bt then i dont like my tutorial class at all! why she always raised her voice!
pointed here n pointed there...i dont enjoy been in tht class..i want to participate but I AM AFRAID OF HER!!!!!!!! arghhhh...mybe bcoz we are not ready...my be it is not too remote if i relate it with lecture class...
sometimes i dream a lot in tht class...hahaha..no wonder la msuk kelas tutor contract, hampeh jdinya...

n smthg tht i really thinking about while i write this post is MY FAMILY....
wuahhaaa...missing my parents, my beloved grandma n grandpa....
has been 2 mnths i guess....today i felt like im missing them too much...
i dont know why? is it my time to go back??
i dont think this weekend is the best time fr me to go back...
exam is haunting me....hmmm...
i love them n until now my love is only to THEM....
nt other persons or GIRL...they come first then the girl...

is that really will happen??

first, im thinking of my past...
im afraid of that moment will again happen to me...
im afraid so much of that incident...
it dragged me into many problems....
changed me a lot from what i was before....

it has been 2 years now! it is still haunted me.....
but lately, one question came to approach me...
are u dare enough to consider it back??
i admit that incident still haunted me but not as strong as before.
i think i am matured enough to bear it again.

but it is not an easy job
suitability and eternity is what i prioritize...
"no suitable no talk"
a mountain of money cannot make ur relationship last-long
a shining and expensive car cannot make me satisfy
because if i have it now, it is not mine fully,
it come from my father's wealth even he is not wealthy
so if someone dare to claim he is wealthy now,
come forward and issue it to me,
i will definitely deliver my point.......

am i desperate because wrote all this?
no, im not..
i can wait...

lost

two words to decribe myself
                                  

                                " I LOST"

study for what?

yesterday evening, i went out wth my three friends, ali, paan...guess wht guys? we passed thrgh a big house besides an embassy house (arab saudi if im not mistaken), we found out that there are so many sport cars in the compund....arghhh!!! i was tensed up by that...we were guessing how rich is that person....huhu...not one sport car he has but many if im not mistaken 3 or 4 that we can barely saw from a narrowed-fence-space....instead of those sport cars, he also has others cars which i think as usual car la for him...for me mybe still an expensive car which unaffordable for me to have one...for now la.for the next 10 years dont know la...hope i can be la like him...but then i suddenly thinking...wht is my purpose of study? is for sake of my future so that i can earn a lot of money and live easily with my own money and family or because i am being appointed as a muslim and for the sake perform my duties to him??? honestly, the latter is not always in my box of thinking. i rarely thinking about my objective spiritually...nauzubillah...i write in this way not becoz im pious but for my self reflection purpose...BUT BECAUSE OF MY CONDUCT, I WOULD NOT THINKING AS SUCH.....

however, materially speaking that man give me a hope and challenge me to be like him impliedly...hahaha..but if im to be like him i will not spend my money to that way..i will spend that for my travelling plan...travelling physically, mentally and spiritually. hahahaha..then i remembered my joke with my friends in the car after passed through fr the second time..." kalau aku jadi dia kan aku, aku xbeli r keta sport byk2, baik aku kumpul pompuan, xpun isteri..buat collection mcm tue..hahaha"...."yela tue, tp even ko spend money kt pompuan xbyk mcm ko spend beli keta tue ko taw x"...haha..so the moral of the story?? for me, sometime mney make u frgt who are u n where u came from...n exposed u to a matter of world usually...then for other values, think it by urselves....

"philisopher show a way for u to think always but not the answer to the questions raised"